Friday, March 02, 2007

I'm leaving!

I have moved here. Blogger is getting harder to use, more problems than I care to deal with. Also, I like being able to respond to the comments that are left on my posts and blogger will not let me do that. So, please, come on over to my new home!

Thursday, March 01, 2007

For those of you that read this post, a little update. My latest pap came back NORMAL. I have now had all but one since my cold knife cone come back normal. I go back in June, which will be considered my annual visit, and if that one comes back normal, I won't have to come back for another year. This is great news for someone that has gone for a pap too many times to count in the last 2 years!

Last night I was brushing Alyssa's teeth before bed and, lo and behold, what do I fine? My baby has 2, count 'em, 2 new teeth coming in!! Two top molars. One on each side!

Yesterday I picked Kaylie up from after-school care and she informs me that she had a nightmare the night before and wants to know if I want to know what it was about. Sure. So she tells me. Chris was picking her up from daycare. It was storming outside, really storming. And, there was an elephant, a mean elephant. He came charging toward the truck. He was a mean elephant and he was trying to kill people. He had horns.

That's it, that was the nightmare.

Now, a little background on the alleged nightmare. First of all, all day long yesterday they had been talking about the storms that we were going to get that night and today and 2 seconds before the nightmare story, Kaylie was telling me how scared she was gonna be whenever it was gonna storm. Secondly, at school they learn to read a new story each week. This week's character? You guessed it, an elephant.

The girl has got some imagination though, maybe she will be a writer one day. Or maybe she's just a big fat liar and will be a used car salesman one day, lol.

Kidding, she's waaaaaaay too smart for that!

Tuesday, February 27, 2007

I did some Yoga on Sunday and Alyssa did too!

Clearly, she is better at it than I am!

She did help me though...helped me by pulling my hair!

Thursday, February 22, 2007

Last week Kaylie had to go to the dentist to have a very small cavity filled. This is the first one and, hopefully, the last one she will have. I was unsure of what to tell her about what they were going to do. It struggled with letting her know they may give her a shot in her mouth or not telling her to keep her from getting real anxious about it. If I tell her she will get upset and nervous. If I don't tell her she will be mad when she finds out. It was a catch 22. In the end I decided not to tell her.

I did explain that they would put a mask on her nose with "laughing gas" and that it would help her relax while they fixed her tooth. Honestly, I wasn't really sure if they would give her a shot or not because the cavity was soooo small, so why scare her for no reason, ya know.

Anyway, we get there and she is all smiles. This child loves going to the dentist! We go back and they put the mask on her and she was doing really good. The dentist comes in and I saw that they were going to be giving her a shot. They did not tell her they were going to, he just started.

Ya'll, my baby girl did not even flinch. She didn't cry. She didn't try to push him away. She took it better than some grown men would. Hell, she took it better than I would've. I can't begin to tell you how proud I was and am of her. I was more nervous than she ever even thought about being.

In the end, the cavity got filled, and she thought that her numb mouth was just too cool!

On another note, my sweet little baby girl, Alyssa, has been hurtin her mommy's feelings lately. I pick her up from her babysitter everyday (I drop her off also). And for the last week every time I pick her up, she smiles when she sees me and then when I pick her up or take her from the babysitter, she starts crying and hits me in my face!!!!! And she wants to go back to the babysitter. I'm very glad that she loves the people that watch her so much, and I know it's just a phase she's going through, but after a couple of times, I can't help but let it get to me.

It makes me question if there is something I'm doing wrong as a mother. Kaylie never did that and it really really hurts my feelings. I sometimes feel like she would rather be with anyone else but me.

Thursday, February 15, 2007

I just happened to read this and thought I would invite everyone else to take a look then come on back over here and let me tell you a little story.

Go on, I'll wait!

About 4 years ago, I had my very first abnormal pap. I was a little freaked out by it, but I knew people that had them come back this way and it was nothing so I wasn't too bothered. At the time, I had no health insurance so I wasn't really sure just what my options would be anyway. I went to my regular doctor for the pap instead of an OB-GYN for that reason. I knew that he would let me pay when I could.

Anyway, he wanted me to go to an OB-GYN that he knew and have a colposcopy done, which is just looking at your cervix with a very high-powered microscope to check out the abnormal areas. Just so you know, the pap was just a little abnormal, but my doc likes to err on the side of caution. The procedure was going to cost too much so I decided to just go back for another pap in 6 months.

Six months later, it came back as normal. Yay! No worries, we can go back to annual visits. Fast forward to just a little over a year later in early 2005. I still do not have health insurance at this point, but I went back to my regular doc for my annual exam. Abnormal again. A little more abnormal than last time. Still without the health insurance I waited 3 months or so and had another pap. The first one came back with mild dysplasia (I don't feel like htmling, so look it up). 3 months later, I've got sever dysplasia. One small step away from cervical cancer. I'm 25 years old at this point. Fuck the fact that I don't have health insurance, my parents helped me and I went and had the colposcopy done. At the same time, they did a biopsy of several parts of my cervix and let me just tell you, it was a painful procedure.

Several days later the doctor calls and tells me they need to do laser surgery and remove the abnormal parts of my cervix. I'm totally scared at this point, but we schedule the surgery. In April 2005 I go in for the surgery. When I wake up, they tell me that instead of using a laser, they had to do what called a cold-knife cone (once again, look it up) and had to remove a larger part of my cervix than expected but they believe they got it all.

Of course the next month I got pregnant and never dialated at all during about 15 hours of hard labor and I have of course had pap smears every 4 months or so since and only had one come back as abnormal.

I guess what I'm getting at is if I had had the opportunity for a vaccine that could have prevented everything I had to go through and will go through for the rest of my life, I would have done it in a heartbeat. Anyone that has the opportunity to get this vaccine, please do it. I have never been so scared in my life. All I could think was cancer at 25. What will happen to my daughter? Luckily, I'm ok, but the next person may not be.

Wednesday, February 14, 2007

I know that I said I wasn't sure if I am going to continue blogging or not, and I'm still not, but I just have to share just what a sweet sweet man I married.

As I said, Chris and I are back together and he has been moving things into OUR apartment since Monday. Last night he was at our old house, cleaning some things and packing more stuff, blah blah blah. He got home and saw the girls for a few minutes before bedtime and then he said he had some more stuff in that he had to get out of his truck.

Next thing I know, he's got this huge heart with legs (seriously huge) and some candy and stickers and such sitting on the dining room table. He had stopped and picked up Valentine's gifts for Kaylie and Alyssa. How sweet is that? I was not expecting him to do this.

And, then, this morning, I got up (after he had left for work) to find some roses, candy, etc and the sweetest card in the world. I'm very lucky to have Chris and I'm so happy to have him back in my life!

What are your plans for V-day?

Monday, February 12, 2007

Ok, I'm not sure just yet, but I may not be blogging anymore. I love to blog, it's a nice outlet for my feelings and to get advice from people who are unbiased and see things from the outside looking in. But, on the other hand, I love my husband much, much, much more than blogging and I'm very happy to say, that Chris and I have decided that we are going to work things out and we are offically back together.

To say that I am happy about this is like saying the Grand Canyon is just a little hole in the desert!

Anyway, I think Chris will be ok with my blog as long as he realizes that I am not putting any personal or intimate things on here and I've talked to him about that. I'm going to let Chris make the decison on whether or not he is comfortable with me blogging. Either way, I will continue to read the blogs on my blogroll and others that I come across.

Thursday, February 08, 2007


Alright I got, ok, stole this from Isabel. Well, I really didn't steal it, she tagged everyone, so, here goes. By the way, go check her's out, it's really funny!

1. Are your parents married or divorced? Married, for 32 years this year!! I want that to be me someday.
2. Are you a vegetarian? No
3. Do you believe in Heaven? Definitely
4. Have you ever come close to dying? I don't think so.
5. What jewelry do you wear 24/7? Well, I used to wear my wedding ring 24/7, but currently I am not, although, I hope to put it back on one day. Wish me luck with that.
6. Favorite time of day? I think it just depends on the day. I do like how excited Alyssa is to see me when she wakes up in the mornings.
7. Do you eat the stems of broccoli? Yes
8. Do you wear makeup? Sometimes. I don't normally wear it to work, although, I think I should.
9. Ever have plastic surgery? I never have, but I would like to.
11. What do you wear to bed? Since it has been so cold here and my husband lives in another house, I've been wearing pjs, but usually I am sans clothing. I'm just more comfortable that way. The clothes don't get all tangled up. By the way, what happened to question # 10?
12. Have you ever done anything illegal? Uh, yeah, maybe.
13. Can you roll your tongue? Yes I can.
14. Do you tweeze your eyebrows? Not usually, I use one of those little battery powered clipper things that are meant for your eyebrows. I think I'm gonna start plucking though. It lasts longer.
15. What kind of sneakers? What kind of sneakers what? Do I own? Not sure, but I think they are New Balance.
16. Do you believe in abortions? I've heard they are real.
17. What is your hair color? Brown
18. Future child’s name? Right now I don't know that there will be a future child.
19. Do you snore? Chris says I do, I don't believe him.
20. If you could go anywhere in the world where would it be? I would go somewhere warm and tropical, like Fiji or Hawaii.
21. Do you sleep with stuffed animals? If my cat keeps waking me up, then he will get stuffed!
22. If you won the lottery, what would you do first?
First? I have no idea, considering where I work, after I told my friends and family, I would probably sit down with my boss for some advice. (I work for a financial advisor)
24. Hamburger or hot dog? Both
25. If you could only eat one food for the rest of your life, what would it be? That's a tough question, one that I cannot answer.
26. City, beach or country? City…but the beach on the weekends.
27. What was the last thing you touched? My mouse.
28. Where did you eat last? At home, last night.
29. When’s the last time you cried? I hate this question, but, I cry more than usual these days.
30. Do you read blogs? Of course, I'm nosy.
31. Would you ever go out dressed like the opposite sex? I suppose.
32. Ever been involved with the police? Maybe once.
33. What’s your favorite shampoo conditioner and soap? I don't have a fave shampoo and conditioner, but my fave soap is Caress.
34. Do you talk in your sleep? No one has ever told me that I do.
35. Ocean or pool? Both, but I haven't been to the ocean in so long, I would love to go there.
36. So, who has the original missing questions? I don't know. Hoffa?
37. Who would you take on a ménage à trois for a dirty weekend? With my husband? Hmmm, definitely Chris, and, hmmm, no one else, cuz I don't share!
38. Window seat or aisle? I'm not sure, cuz I've never flown before.
39. Ever met anyone famous? I can't remember.
40. Do you feel that you’ve had a truly successful life? Sometimes, but not right now. There are many more things I want to accomplish!
41. Do you twirl your spaghetti or cut it? It just depends, but, usually I cut it.
42. Ricki Lake or Oprah Winfrey? Neither.
43. Basketball or Football? Both, but mostly football.
44. How long do your showers last? Depends, but usually about 10 minutes.
45. Automatic or do you drive a stick? I drive a minivan, what do you think?
46. Cake or ice cream? Both
47. Are you self-conscious? Who isn't?
48. Have you ever drank so much you threw up? Yes, back when I was young and stupid.
49. Have you ever given money to a beggar? Probably so.
50. Have you been in love? Oh, most definitely!
51. Where do you wish you were? At home, lounging.
52. Are you wearing socks? Not at the moment.
53. Have you ever ridden in an ambulance? Yes
54. Can you tango? Not that I know of, I've never tried. But, I can dance.
55. Last gift you received? Christmas gifts.
56. Last sport you played? Softball
57. Things you spend a lot of money on? Uh, bills!
58. Where do you live? In a 2 bedroom apartment.
59. Where were you born? Memphis
60. Last wedding attended? My own.
61. Spit or swallow? There are some things that I will not share!
62. Favorite position? See questions #61.
63. Most hated food(s)? I'm not sure, I like lots of things, but I hate peanut butter and butterscotch.
65. Can you sing? In the car.
66. Last person you instant messaged? No one, I don't IM.
67. Last place you went on holiday? Not really a vacation, but back in August, Chris and I went to Nashvegas.
68. Favorite regular drink? Water
69. Current Song? I have no idea.
70. Tag 3 friends: EVERYONE!

Wednesday, February 07, 2007

My little girl is growing up. My 1st born. On Monday when I picked her up from school she informed me that she had to call someone when we got home. I was thinking she wanted to call her father. Turns out, that's not the case. She had gotten a friend from school's phone number and was going to call HIM!!!!! That's right, HIM! I knew that at some point she was going to start wanting to use the phone but I figured she would be calling up some little girls, not boys!

She ended up losing the phone number somehow and then left it at school last night so she hasn't been able to make this phone call. I'm not sure if I should let her or not. I know that it is completely innocent, but it really freaks me out. Scares me. I want more time with her before she starts discovering boys. She is only 6!!!!. Also, she does talk about this particular boy alot and I've seen him in the class picture and he is cute, but I just don't know.

Thursday, February 01, 2007

I have a special request for anyone that happens to come across this blog today or tomorrow or whenever. Please go here and make a donation to help St. Jude. Make a donation in honor of someone you know that has survived cancer. Make a donation for someone you know that has not survived cancer or someone who's children or family have been affected by it. Or make one in honor of the healthy children or grandchildren you have.

This radio station in Memphis does this Radiothon once a year to raise money and I thought that maybe I could help them out just a little by providing this link and asking for your help. If you want to learn more about St. Jude and what they do go here and read all about them. Keep in mind that is cost $1,000,000 a DAY just to keep the doors open and no child is ever told they cannot receive treatment because their family cannot pay.

You never know if it could be you or someone you know that has to walk through those doors next. Wouldn't you like to be sure that they are still open?

Also, you don't have to ask me to add me to your blogroll. If you wanna add me, I'm all for it. :)

Wednesday, January 31, 2007

I have been toying with the idea of moving my blog to Wordpress. Mainly because, I like being able to respond when someone leaves me a comment. I don't want to seem like I don't really care about what you have to say. I don't, but I don't want to seem that way. Anyway, I will be making that decision soon. Until then programming will continue as scheduled, please check your local listings.

For the past 2 days at around 7 or so, Alyssa has had a complete meltdown. She has eaten so she's not hungry, she's just tired. Anything and everything will make her cry and scream and fling herself around. Normally, Alyssa is a very easy going little girl, only getting upset when she's tired or hungry. Now she is becoming a little more independent and gets mad when she doesn't get what she wants.

Case in point: Alyssa loves end tables, has loved them since she was old enough to really see them and understand that there are things on them. Things she cannot have. When she sits with me on the couch, she will eventually try to get to the tables. I tell her no, and move her away. OMG!!! This has really been pissing her off lately. That is pretty much what started her meltdowns the last two nights. I finally had to just turn off almost all the lights and sit down in the recliner and rock with her until she finally calmed down.

Like I said, the reason for this is she is tired. I don't know if she's napping less at her babysitter (note to self: ask them, duh) or if she's going through a growth spurt (that would be great) and needs more rest. Either way, I am NOT going to move her bedtime earlier than it is. She goes to bed by 8:30 on the weeknights. Some nights we don't get home until 5:30 and then I have to make dinner and I don't end up getting to spend much time with the girls before bedtime as it is. I don't want to lose more of that time. I think I will ask her babysitter to try to get her to take either longer naps or more naps and maybe that will help, who knows.

Poor, poor sad Lissy

Tuesday, January 30, 2007

WOW! I can't believe I had 19 comments on my last post!!!! (Well, 20, if you include my own comment) Thank you to everyone for your suggestions and I really am going to try my best to become more organized. I am tired of starting each morning out feeling rushed and feeling like I forgot to do something.

Speaking of forgetting to do something, I forgot to take something out for dinner tonight, so you see why I need to get organized!

This past weekend, Alyssa stood BY HERSELF!!! Not for long, only about 5 seconds or so, but she stood and I could tell that she really wanted to do it! I guess she will be attempting some steps soon. I'm not at all ready for that, not because she will be more mobile and into even more stuff, but because, holy crap, she's growing up waaaaaaaaay too fast and it makes me sad. I also took her bottle away from her this weekend. I had been offering her a sippy cup for the last month or so and she wanted nothing to do with it. Nothing. So, I finally decided that we were gonna quit the bottle "cold turkey" and it was much easier than I anticipated. She is now drinking out of a sippy cup!

I will leave you with a new pic.

It's not very good quality; I took it with my phone.


I want everyone to send out prayers for a friend of mine today. She, unfortunately, had a miscarriage last night. She was just one day or so away from that 13-week milestone. She was so excited about having her 1st baby, but, sometimes things work out differently than you plan.

Thursday, January 25, 2007

Ok fellow bloggers, I need advice! I know that all of my readers are incredibly smart, otherwise, you would not be reading.

I need help getting myself, my kids, and my apartment organized. I am serious! I am not a very organized person, I never have been, and it just seems to be getting worse. I end up late for everything because at the last minute I'm running around like a chicken with it's head cut off trying to get shit together!! I do not like feeling rushed but most days, it's my own fault. Did I mention that I may be a bit of a procrastinator? And a packrat? Lord I need help!

Any advice, be it personal or pointing me to a website or whatever would be greatly appreciated.

One thing for sure I need some advice on is how to get Kaylie motivated in the mornings to get herself ready.


Wednesday, January 24, 2007

5 Things Meme

Well, I've been tagged by Kellie again for another Meme. This one is 5 Things About Me. I will try my hardest not to bore anyone that happens to read this to death!

**Once you have been tagged, you have to write a blog with 5 facts about yourself. Then choose 5 people you want to tag and list their names. Then leave a comment on their blog letting them know they’ve been tagged.**

5 things about me:

1. When I lay on the couch with a blanket, if the blanket has a tag on it, it has to be on the side near my feet, not near my head. I have not idea why, it just does.

2. I recently decided to get my belly button pierced! Well, not recently, I had decided along time ago, but I finally did it!!

3. I really don't understand this, but I would love, love, love to have another baby. It's probably not gonna happen any time soon, if ever, but I would love to.

4. I love thunderstorms! Especially thunderstorms at night during the summertime. I love to sit and watch them roll in and watch the lightning.

5. I suck at writing things about myself. Like this.

OMG that was so horrible. I apologize to anyone that reads this.

Ok, so I'm gonna tag:

Amy W.
Stacey (cuz she needs something to blog about)

Thursday, January 18, 2007

A little late

Ok, I don't have the internet at home so I could not post a birthday post to my baby girl on her birthday and I've been pretty busy while at work. But, finally, I am doing it.

Alyssa's 1st birthday was on Sunday, January 7th. Let's go back to one year ago.

Early morning December 31st (around 5ish I think) I woke up having contractions. You were not due until the end of January so I was shocked and kinda scared. We were really not ready. Although, I had a feeling that you were not planning to wait until the end of January to meet us so Daddy and I had done our best to get things ready early. I woke up your Daddy and off to the hospital we go and, yep, I'm in labor. 35 and 1/2 weeks was too soon they said. They gave me some shots in my arm to stop the labor and we spent our New Year's Eve night in the hospital. Luckily the shots worked and we went home the next day.

Fast forward to 3 days later. Once again, early morning and I am in labor again. Back to the hospital we go. They stop the labor again and we go home and go to see my OB that afternoon. I had not dialated from the labor but I was still contracting all the time. He decided to go ahead and induce me on Friday, January 6th.

Daddy and I got up that morning, we took Kaylie to school and head to the doctor's office and promptly got sent to the hospital where the induction began. After 18, yes 18, hours of labor there were some problems. The nurse came in and put an oxygen mask on me because your heart rate was just a little low. Ok, I can handle that. Dr. Stack (love him) came in and checked and I was still only 3 cm dialated. It was looking like a c-section but we wanted to wait a little longer and see. Just a few minutes later, the nurse comes in and rolls me on my right side, then on my left and then more nurses come in and they tell me that you had to come out NOW. Your heart rate was around 60 bpm and should have been more than twice that. I have never been so scared in my life.

Within minutes I am being wheeled into the OR for an emergency c-section. Your Daddy couldn't even come with me because they had to put me under general anethesia. That scared me even more. The next thing I know I wake up back in my room and your Daddy is standing next to the bed holding you in his arms. You were perfect.

It seems like yesterday. I thank God and the wonderful doctors and nurses that you came through everything just fine. I love you baby girl.

Happy 1st Birthday Alyssa!

A little late, but better than nothing!

******Edited to add other pics of Alyssa. I wanted everyone to see just how much she demolished that cake. She LOVED it.******

Tuesday, January 16, 2007

Very proud!

This weekend was a pretty good weekend for me and my girls. Of course, we had Alyssa's 1st birthday party and I will tell you about that and probably have some pics later.


On Friday night, I picked up Kaylie from school, picked up Alyssa from Chris and went home. Of course, as soon as I got home I realized that I still had not dropped of Alyssa prescription for her ear infection. So, back out we all go. Thank goodness it was not raining (it did most of the weekend) and was nice out (65ish degrees). We go to the closest Walgreens to drop off the script. We go in and I give it to them and they tell me it will be an hour and a half before it's ready. WTF!?! So I said ok and we go back home. We all eat dinner and I'm waiting on 8:30 to get close so that we can go back to get the medicine. Alyssa was getting fussy and was obviously ready to go to bed.

We go back and, of course, the line at the pharmacy is about 10 miles long. So we wait and wait and wait. We finally get to the front of the line and, don't you know, it wasn't even ready yet! I should say that the girls were behaving very very well the whole time, which helped. They finally get it ready and we leave, again, and head home. We get home and get pjs on and take medicine and Kaylie tells me she wants to read the library book she go from school before bed.

Ok, fine with me. We all get into Kaylie's bed. Ok, Alyssa stayed there for about 2.5 seconds and then wanted down. But, Kaylie opens the book and, much to my surprise and amazement, she started reading the book to me!!!!!!!!! My baby has learned how to read!!! OMG!!! She still needed help on a few of the words, but she read me the entire book. I cannot tell you how proud I am of this. I knew it was going to happen but the only things she was reading to me were little books that she and her classmates had put together, so I was thinking she was just remembering what the stories were.

Not so!!! I'm so excited for her and she was so happy to be able to show me that she could read. I can't wait for her to read another book to me. It was great that I was the one she wanted to share that with.

Friday, January 12, 2007

In most of my recent posts, I have kept most of my feelings and what's going on with my "situation" to myself, for my own reasons, but, things are changing and I feel like writing things down.

I've decided that I am no longer going to try to change Chris's mind about getting a divorce. Chris has been very wishy washy, for lack of a better word, with me in the last 2 months. He tells me that maybe we can work things out, that it may take awhile, but it could happen. Great! Then, 3 weeks later, he's changed his mind...again. But he still continues to ask me things like why did this happen and why this and why that.

If you want a divorce, WHY do you care??

I can't continue to put myself through that. It hurts me too much. Don't get me wrong, I still love Chris with all of my heart, but I am beginning to realize some things about him. This whole situation is showing me how selfish he can be. HE is the one that wanted to have Alyssa (I don't regret our decision and I never will, please don't think that) and get married because, and I quote, "it was the right thing to do". Now, my close friends that know me know that I have never believed that little saying. I have never agreed with getting married simply because you got someone pregnant. I married Chris because I was in love with him, no other reason. Sure, it happened sooner than we expected because I did get pregnant, but I was in love. It seems to me that Chris cannot and does not want to handle the responsibiltiy of being a full-time husband and father. Thats fine. That is his decision, but it should've been made along time ago, before he allowed my daughter and his daughter to become involved. They shouldn't have had to go through this. He can tell me all day long that the reason he wants a divorce is because I lied to him. I think that's bullshit. He was just looking for an out and he found one.

I've spent the last 2 months thinking about everything over and over again and I can't keep doing that. Like I said, I still love Chris and I wish that we could work things out, but he can't handle it and I can't force him to. I have to move on with my life for my sake and my daughters' sakes.

It will be a long time before I get involved with anyone else. I'm just not ready for anything like that. I do want a family, a husband, my kids, hanging out at home just watching tv and playing, but I still would like to have that with Chris and I'm finally coming to grips with the fact that it is not going to happen.

I took Alyssa for her 1 year checkup yesterday and my poor baby did not enjoy it. When I picked her up from the babysitter, she felt a little warm. We get to the dr and they prick her finger to check her iron, which was great, and that pissed her off. She would calm down a little bit and then she would look at the band-aid on her little finger and just get all upset again. Made me want to cry with her. She's healthy, she's growing. She's 16 pounds, 12 ounces. On the small side, but her doctor is ok with it. She was running a fever though, a small one, but a fever. She has an ear infection and a cough and snot for days. But, we will get her antibiotics and she will be feeling great and ready for her birthday party on Saturday. I can't wait for that!

Thursday, January 11, 2007

Go on over and see Vicki and read her post. I think she's got a pretty cool idea and I think I'm gonna participate!

Wednesday, January 10, 2007

Well then

After my "de-lurk" post was posted I received plenty of comments from people that I know read my blog and some that I didn't know and a few that are new readers. Of course, now I feel like I must entertain you people with witty writings of my interesting life. Boy, are ya'll (shut up, I live in Tennessee) gonna be sorely disappointed.

Mostly it will just be me bitching about my ex-husband and his inability to pay any child support whatsoever, me rejoicing in my two beautiful daughters (ok, ok, complaining at times too) and just giving my thoughts on life, love, and the pursuit of happiness. I hope that it is good enough because, while I do enjoy narrative writing (always have), more often than not, I find myself struggling to put what I'm thinking into words. Well, words that other people can understand anyway.

What types of things do you enjoy blogging about and why do you blog?

Edited to add: Stupid new blogger. I used to be able to respond to people's comments when they were emailed to me and I cannot respond any more. Just want ya'll to know that I would if I could. Stupid new blogger.

Monday, January 08, 2007


It's National Delurker Week so I wanna hear from ya!

Thursday, January 04, 2007

Two posts in one day!

Ok, I stole this from It's My Life and wanted to do it. I am tagging everyone!

1. What did you do in 2006 that you’d never done before? Bought 2 vehicles
2. Did you keep your New Year’s resolutions, and will you make more for next year?I did not make any last year.
3. Did anyone close to you give birth? Yeah, I did!
4. Did anyone close to you die? Luckily no.
5. What countries did you visit? None
6. What would you like to have in 2007 that you lacked in 2006? There are lots of things.
7. What date from 2006 will remain etched upon your memory, and why? There are 2, the 1st is Jan. 7th because it's my baby girl's birthday and the other is Nov. 5th because that's the day my husband told me he wanted a divorce.
8. What was your biggest achievement of the year? Getting a big raise at work.
9. What was your biggest failure? Separating from my husband.
10. Did you suffer illness or injury? Just the usual colds, etc.
11. What was the best thing you bought? I don't know.
12. Whose behavior merited celebration? Certainly not mine.
13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed? Mine.
14. Where did most of your money go? To everyone else.
15. What events did you get really, really, really excited about? My daughter's impending birth and my first wedding anniversary.
16. What song will always remind you of ‘06? Broken Road by Rascal Flatts
17. Compared to this time last year, are you:* Happier or Sadder? Much sadder* Thinner or Fatter? Thinner (but I was preggo last year) * Richer or Poorer? Neither I guess
18. What do you wish you’d done more of? Too many things.
19. What do you wish you’d done less of? Worrying
20. How was Christmas? My kids enjoyed it.
21. Who did you spend the most time on the phone with? Probably my husband.
22. Did you fall in love in 2006?I stayed in love
23. How many one-night stands? None
24. What was your favorite TV program? I don't know, I like CSI and Law & Order.

25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn’t hate this time last year? Hate…no. Dislike…yes.

26. What was the best book you read? I have not really had time to read.
27. What was your greatest musical discovery or rediscovery? I didn't have any.
28. What did you want and get? Love for a minute at least.

29. What did you want and not get? See #28
30. What were your favorite films of this year? I don't really have any.
31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you? 27 and Chris and I went to a Tennessee Titans game.
32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying? My husband working things out with me.
33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2006? I don't know.
34. What kept you sane?My husband tried to and so did I.
35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most/least? I really don't care either way.
36. What political issue stirred you the most? Hmmm, I'm not sure.
37. Whom did you miss? My Husband.
38. Who was the best new person you met? No one that I can think of.
39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2006: Not enough time or space to list it.
40. Do you have any lost feelings of others? no

Happy New Year

I hope that everyone had a good New Years. Mine was quiet, I had my babies and stayed home with them. They did stay up until around 11 or so and had a good time playing. I would do like everyone else and go into what I want for 2007, but I'm not going to.

I'm sure I have lots of resolutions for myself, my family, my career, etc, but do I really want to put them all into words and put them on this blog? Not really. There are some things that I do not feel like sharing and this is one of them.

That being said, I do hope for good things in the next year. My 2006 started out wonderful and ended pretty crappy. It can only get better, right?

I'm a little sad at the moment because, my little baby will be turning one year old on Sunday. I'm so excited that she has reached this milestone, but I wish that I could turn back time, or, at least slow it down some. Before I know it she will be walking and talking and turn into a toddler that doesn't want to cuddle or want my help to do things anymore.

Oh well, I guess that's just what they do.