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Monday, October 13, 2008

Regrets

I've spent alot of time lately looking back at my life. Thinking about things that have happened and decisions that I've made. For the most part, I have no regrets. There are some things I do regret, however.

I regret my senior year of high school. I had fun, don't get me wrong. But, I concentrated too much on having fun and not enough on school. I got horrible grades and ended up having to take senior English again in summer school. I didn't get to walk across that stage and get my diploma. I didn't get to throw my cap in the air and celebrate with my friends. I got to watch. I got to spend the summer after graduation in summer school. I, of course, passed the course in summer school, I have a high school diploma and all that. For some reason, inspite of my poor school record, I was accepted to The University of Memphis. But, again, I was too interested in having fun and going out partying. I chose not to go. Luckily, even without a college degree, I have managed to get a great job. One that pays enough. But, one day, I'd still like to get that degree.

I regret allowing myself to become so complacent the last couple of years. To ignore my feelings of being overwhelmed and stressed and putting everyone else first. I never realized how unhappy I was. And, it was my own doing. It cost me alot. It cost me 2 years. 2 years that I can't get back. But, I can look forward and make the rest of my years much better.

Other than those, I really don't regret too much. I have a home, a car, 2 beautiful kids, a good job and good friends. I'm lucky. I've got more than some people do. And I am thankful for that everyday.

Are there any things you regret?

11 comments:

Katie said...

wow. That first part could have been ME posting that. You probably remember the same exact thing happened to me in my Senior year. Watching graduation instead of participating, going to summer school for English. All of it. I know exactly how that feels.

Kellie said...

I do. But, over the last several months, I've started to change my view of those things I "regret". I can't say I totally regret them, becuase without them, I may not be where I am today. Had I finished college, I might've moved to a different State for my career. Had that happened, I wouldn've have met Jimmy and had Morgan. Had I not made the mistakes I made in my first marriage, I wouldn't have met Jimmy and had Morgan.

So, don't look at them as regrets. Look at them as beautiful mistakes.

Heather said...

Damn- couldn't have said it better than Kellie.

We all have regrets - but hopefully we can learn something from what we did or didn't do. I'd like to think I did anyway.

SJ said...

Um yes, I have regrets. LOTS of them. Too many to list....

Sherry said...

Kellie did say it all!! and regrets heck ya I have zillions, BUT, I can only live for the moment because to look back is too sad for me during some periods of my life. To look forward is well , wishing for the "happy go lucky no cares, no problem life." But to live for the day, well that's our opportunity to make it all right!! Take one day at a time, live in the moment and be the best person you can be.

Amy W said...

Yes, I have some regrets. I regret some decisions I have made here lately. And it sucks.

Steph said...

I have the opposite regret - that I was too serious during high school and didn't take the time to have fun. Now I kick myself in the ass because I see my niece in her senior year (and the last few years), having the time of her life and making lifelong friends. This is just ONE of my regrets. But as has been said, my life wouldn't be what it is now if I had made different choices.

That Chick Over There said...

Oh hon. It's so hard to make huge life decisions when you are 17 or 18. You know? When I was 16 and a Senior in high school my mom was diagnosed with breast cancer. And I fell apart. I didn't even APPLY to colleges. Not even one. I had no idea what to do and no one was there telling me I could have more or be more.

I've spent a ton of time mooning over boys instead of worrying about grades. I wish I hadn't done that.

Sometimes I regret moving to Knoxville. I feel very alone here and I don't have anyone to help me if I was in a dire situation and needed help. I mean, I have Jason, but well...you know what I mean. If he AND I needed help, we have no one.

I don't know. There are a million more things I could say, but this comment is already huge.

Just know you are not alone.

Memphis Steve said...

I regret that I didn't have more fun partying in high school. I regret that I trusted my own parents' promises and never saw the betrayal coming. I could've gotten scholarships easily and I already had qualified for great colleges, including Cornell. Who expects their own parents to try to prevent them from being successful in life? I regret that I didn't take out student loans and get the hell away from them. I regret that my own family could be regular characters on "My Name Is Earl".

squishytushy said...

Damn... how I ever regret the bulk of my high school years....

What a great idea for a post - I think I may have to take you up on the question and dedicate an entire post (or 23) to it. Cuz regrets? I have (more than) a few!

(Although Kellie does have very valid points...)

Emma in Canada said...

I tend to try not to regret things, all these mistakes have made me who I am. But yeah, i wish I had done better in school. But then I turn around say had I gone to university and had a career I wouldn;t have had Taylor and Liam. I probably wouldn;t have met William and then I wouldn't have my girls.

So regret? Not really.